I wish things were easier. I’m sick of always having to take care of everyone else but no one ever taking care of me. I’m over it. And sends my plans fell through tomorrow I guess I’ll be sitting in my room crying tonight or something.

The artwork on this car was done in sharpie. How freaking cool is that? You can click the picture if you want to read about it.

I keep being told “have faith, it will all work out and everything will be just fine.” Too bad I’m a realist at heart. Yeah, ok. You’re right, I will be ok. Things will work out exactly how they are supposed to, I’m just not sure thats going to be how I want them to. I don’t have faith in you. More than that I don’t have faith in me. The next few weeks will be some of the longest yet shortest days of my life. I don’t like feeling stuck, stuck in time, stuck in this house, stuck in this situation, stuck in this mindset. I keep waiting on someone to jump in and save me but I don’t think its going to happen. I hate this inability to completely control my emotions and my thoughts. I thought my schooling would help but in reality it just makes me more cynical. It just makes me more aware of just how stupid I am being, just how dangerous this situation can be. Its hard to be an optimist when you think you know the facts. I want people to embrace me but at the same time I want to be left alone. If I disappeared would anyone notice?

“You’re all that I hoped I’d find
In every single way
And everything I could give
Is everything you couldn’t take
Cause nothing feels like home, you’re a thousand miles away
And the hardest part of living
Is just taking breaths to stay

‘Cause I know I’m good for something
I just haven’t found it yet
But I need it”

- Mayday Parade

This is hard and it hasn’t even happened yet.

You guys won’t care about this but I love these guys!  They are so nerdy, especially Frank. It makes me smile because it is so great.

A Warped Tour tv show? Could be cool. I’d give it a chance.

I’m having trouble getting all my school work done.

I’m having trouble concentrating.

I’m having trouble going to work knowing I have a shitty boss whose face I have to smile in knowing that he doesn’t respect me.

I’m having trouble watching my friends grow around me and not with me.

I’m having trouble with him not being happy.

I’m having trouble knowing he’s leaving me here.

I’m having trouble knowing I’m losing him.

I’m having trouble knowing I’m loosing them.

I’m having trouble sleeping.

I’m having trouble eating.

I’m having trouble being alone.

I’m having trouble being happy.

I’m having trouble.

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There’s an octopus in my mug!!! (Taken with instagram)